Bad news good news

Its been very sad to watch the dissolution of a great workplace into a hovel. Half my work friends have left now & the other half hate working here & most want to go.

It used to be a fun place to work, and i'm glad i saw that for a while, cos you don't see that much. I mean you can have fun with your fellow peons in a lot of jobs sort of in spite of things, like in most jobs where your boss sucks, but here even the managers used to be great. Wow respect from a manager as if you were a real person. Awesome concept. Now we have ghost whispy jobsworth bosses, n workers trying like rudderless boats to row thru the morass that is their lot since they changed everything. You can tell the people who are still trying by the wide eyed desperate look they have.

One a positive note i was havin a chatter up the closest possible gallery to work yesterday at lunchtime, buying some tools actually, started chattin, anyway to cut a along story short they have offered me a show. Nice eh. Kinda exciting really. Anyway i need to revisit them for a proper discussion with all sorts of numbers 'n that in it, so if that sux then it could all come to naught, but on the other hand it could be a wonderful opportunity. Could even do some abstract kinda work now, cos they often show ceramics, so their clientele is used to the materials being as loud as the form, so ta speak. They also like figurative work there cos seen a lot of it in their past shows.

Anyway its worth a chat next week when i got a lunchtime to walk back up there. It is funny though i have a history of getting a gallery thats across the road from whatever job i have at the time etc there must be some explanation for it but whatever it is, its bloody convenient anyway.

Regards the current life sized man, well they are seeing theres issues & the date for delivery is put way into the future now, June or summink. This is both good n bad, i sure as f*** don't want it hangin round that long, but of course its already too late for it to get installed by march so its just as well innit.

They came over today, well some of em, cos they got stuck in traffic & it was all a bit crap really & only some of em made it at all & some had to leave before the others arrived & so the full discussion i need from everybody i still hain't got, but they did all try very hard & we will have to all try again next week too... But anyway the few ppl who did chat about it were v positive & the prob is not with my sculpture it is rather with ppl's expectations & they all got to get to discussin them & agreeing with each other & then telling me what they really really want & then i can just do it eh.

Me n a Prius

Today i loaned a Prius, one of them electric hybrid cars. They have a slew of em available & i found out how to request one. I been spending the week walking everywhere & while its been great for my health its a total waste of time when we got so little time to spare. Tho it took me 20 mins to work out HTF to get it started, and other 5 to find the handbrake (hint u don't use your hand!) so that was a bit counter prod. Fun little thing tho it was quite nice to drive once u sussed it out. Just like a car :) I like wheeled things.

I was first trying to gain access to the 2 labs i had failed to gain access to the day before. This was pretty stupid waste of time but this what happens when someone goes on leave & u get to come to actual grips with the rotting corpse u have been handed, & that bagful of loose keys u grabbed from their desk drawer don't save your ass at all. Anyway after some serious emailing i got some pin code for a lab & finally (not easily at all, but i don't wanna bore u too bad) got in to discover - one pc & no working network whatsoever. The really great bit was that there was a back door... that was unlocked... that i had actually walked into yesterday, but it'd been really dark in there yesty & i had sorta barely seen thru the darkness that there were empty desks, with some comms cabinets LEDs flickering up the back, so why would it enter my mind this was a lab... I would say a solid 4 hrs work (and walk) over 2 days got me into this unlocked unlab. Priceless.

I found a person who knew vaguely about this lab, and she told me the real person was on holidays, but she went looking for the pc's. I didn't really want her to go looking for the pc's, cos i wasn't gonna do anything with them anyways, i just wanted her to produce the key to the other lab i needed. I did say this, a few times, but we traipsed across the faculty & got to a building with a sign on the door, Bees have escaped into this building, do not enter for 48 hrs. She let me stay outside. She came out, no, there's no computers in there. Good thing too - what was i gonna do with em.. prolly full a bees.

After various detours she got the key. Finally got into that 2nd lab - i wasn't bloody going to quit before i got in there. My goal for today was to kick these 2 labs in the guts. Success. Sorta. I did get in, but kicking guts was problematic. Anyway the bees, the prius & the pinpad non-lab were the highlights of my week, and all happened on the same day!

Hard

Finding it really hard to address this sculpture. Need a week off. I worked all weekend on it, and it did improve, but the face is now like beyond me being able to see it at all. I think this is what happens to my work, in the end. In the end it gets to a point where i can't stand to work on it one more second & thats it, its finished. Not ideal i guess. And its certainly not how i finish my own work. Tho with my own work i finish it much earlier & leave it half done & i like it like that. When u work for other people u try to make it more perfect cos well they are paying for it it better be excellent.

Anyway if i had my druthers i'd have a week off then take a long look as if it were fresh n new & then modify & then another week off etc. Perfect world that would be but we don't live there, & here is always deadlines.

Work is arse. But i'm getting fitter walking many miles to different labs. i now have an offsider to suffer along with me. Not sure why.

Saturday

Hey another saturday has visited upon us. Today was my birthday i did get an awesome broom as i had hinted really hard about :) Its a wonderful thing to have a good tool. I can sweep the carport out in 5 strokes. Its very satisfying.

Today I rung the dude with the results of the commissioners' viewpoint from the other day & told him he needs to look 17 in this sculpture. He was less than impressed for some reason even though i said it very tactfully i think, i left a lot out. But hell i have never been tactful so maybe someone else may have said it better. He was also coming back to the shoulder business. He been thinking it needs to have shoulder-head situation "rising up" kinda thing. He was pretty sure about this before, tho he seemed to be happy enough with the changes i made earlier, but he's decided not, now. I can't really see it in the photos like he sees it. To me it looks like a trick of perspective in the picture, and it comes from the legs more than the shoulders really... but thats just what think i see, cos i don't really understand it. Anyway today i was stumped again cos he seems to really want this. And most of the main changes he's wanted have been positive & improved it heaps. So anyway i went all 'lateral thinkin' on it's ass, & decided to lift the thing at the front by the base & place it on my 2 Wood Blocks. Bobs yer uncle its all different now, it rises outta the ground more. I set to levelling out the base, & cut off the back foot & put a bend n the back leg & when i get that sorted out proper she'll be right. It will be more powerful like this. I am happy i feel some Progress in positive direction. Even tho this will take some time, it will be better so its worth it.

Still working on the face too tho so we'll see. Gotta get it done tomorrow - another viewing is tuesday.

Verdict: Fail

Today sucked. I had the morning from hell in the computer labs trying to install some dongle licence files on half finished computers. Some program called Wonderware which is impossible to pronounce as anything else but Underware & while it may be the prog of choice for reactor engineers its dongle userfriendliness leaves somthing to be desired in a lab situation where they're all wired in to avoid em getting nicked. A morn of all the worst excesses of user irritation that Windows can provide with slow logins, flickin off USB drives & group policy fails making everything stuff up all over the place. When u got to do so many of em it crumbles away your heart & soul.

I went & had a coffee when i couldn't stand another moment. I went to the new building where they had a cafe. There was the usual windtunnel effect u get in new buildings & the furniture was moving past me as i sat there holding down my macaroon & cappachino. The girl come out & put it all back but it was scraping back along on the concrete before she got back in the door. It was pretty funny really but i was too stressed. Sadly the coffee made me more stressed & i went back into the lab feelin worse than when i left, which is unusual. That was a long long morning then.

I was worryin cos the commissioners were coming this arvo. They kept slipping the time earlier by 15 mins each time they confirmed it so that i was stressing out that i wouldn't even get home before they did. Anyway i did, at 80kmh, 5 mins to spare...

Verdict... they said he looks too old. They want him young like 17 or so. I thought i'd took at least 50 yrs off him but there u go. Studying the old feller was maybe the last thing i shoulda ever done. They said they'd rather i'd not met him til after i finished it! Well thats debatable cos i reckon u can always learn *something* from meeting yer subject. But well yeah it has sure caused me LOADS of problems. But i dunno if i'd do it different next time.

So i'll be working thru my birthday. Not happy cat.

Sign of the time

I found a "Please Queue Here" sign, on a pile of crap for neighborhood junk day. The possibilities!

I stuck his head on tonight. I finished it in darkess, so let's see how scary it is tomorrow. Its my birthday on the weekend but i guess i'll be working thru it. Damn it. This is really starting to wear on me. I'm getting sick again, today at work i went & laid on the desks in the room next door, where the windows server guys used to work, its dark & empty there now. So i had a nap at lunchtime. Its kinda good in a way, cos sometimes u need a nap for lunch & we never had a place to go do that before, not that was inside. Every sharp edge has a silver line then, or what. I was gifted (after a little prompting) with a lovely device from there, it is a ridiculously long power board with about 20 or more sockets on it. Its off a server chassis & it bloody funny. There are a couple under the desks there. There is such a thing as a server geek joke you can hold in your hand :)

Still intrigued

I'm still intrigued by Henry Moore & his pebbles. I feel cheated somehow, that none of the pebbles i've ever found look anything like the extraordinary little hollowed out blobular sculptures he used to find all over the beach when he went to the sea side every year. I was just reading that he used to see & be excited by different shapes every year, like he'd get obsessed with one type of shape. But if he sat down with a pile of em he would see new things there that he liked. Well, der. I mean is the ability to put into words the bleedin obvious a sign of genius? Perhaps it is.
I'm not bagging him... i can see from that how its sposed to be, you know. Simple truths are the real ones, usually. And whats more simple than making things/being a sculptor. It should be a fantastically less difficult thing than i'm making it into, thats for sure. ;)
New years resolution #2: make it easier.

I wonder what beach had those pebbles?

Dawgs

Well i'm feelin a bit like a dead dog - or something deader - but i think i've done the FACE at last. I've spent so much time on this lately that its like its my sentence.
The dude came yesterday & he still didn't see himself in there. Which is cool, cos i didn't think he was there either. But today i sat down & worked for 6 hrs straight on a new clay head & i finally got the bastard. Instead of studying the dude's head as it is now, like i been doing, which is not working at all, i took all the studying i done of his current head & used a 50 yr old photo. so it was a mix of what shape his skull is in reality & what he looked like back in the day. Basically: remove a lot of Character. Young blokes are pretty, but, well, not the same amount of sculpting excitement, not so much hollows & creases eh.
I applied rubber mould to it & in the darkness this evening just before Bones started on TV i finished the plaster mothermould. So should be able to pop out a plaster tomorrow after work & then cut off his old head with an angle grinder & apply the new one maybe the next evening. Then we have visit from the commissioners the afternoon after. So not a moment too soon by golly.

Work is getting in the way of my career

Yeah. As above.

Break'n

So having a wee break. A day of being sick is about all i give myself. I think i've become some kinda weird workaholic type. I don't think i *want* to be a workaholic it is just thrust upon me, since i'm still sure my natural state is to bludge like anything. But maybe it can creep up on ya like a disease.

I spent last couple of days working on this dude's head & it is slowly getting there. Shwaya shwaya as the egyptians say, slowly slowly. It will come. Hopefully. I fobbed off the commissioners an extra week & so i reckon i get one more weekend & then what i have is what u get. The head is looking loads better. I had to let go of some parts & imagine others. It now has a youthful determined look. I have to take 50 years off the real dude but i do take his point that he couldn't quite see himself in there yet. Think i have improved it plenty since but. I think his is the most difficult head i ever seen. Deceptively simple as they say in the real estate ads. Anyway I give it til saturday to invite him back. That gives me wiggle room with my flu. Today was a write off for example. Tomorrow, sadly, terribly, is back to work. Luckily i'm pretty sick i might have a sickie since i doubt i will be productive & i certainly can't walk half an hour distance to press a button in a lab which is part of my duties at the moment.

It does kinda stump me how this likeness stuff gets *harder* with practice. I sure hope in the end it all adds up to some skill set or something. Can't see it now but. One point can be stressed is its easier to do dead guys. LOL. They don't care as much :)

Saw Avatar in 3d friday night. That was cos i couldn't face the fact i done nothing but work all the hols. Gee what a great treat it was. I love this digital projector stuff too - the first time in history that projected movies are in FOCUS! Hooray & bring out the champers.

Been a couple sad things happen in the sculpturin world lately but both of em too new to talk about. Sober u up though. Gird them loins for one & RIP the other.